Mother's Day Recap: Finally finding peace
I feel so weird saying this… like I might jinx myself… so I’m just going to whisper it in your ear: Mother’s Day was surprisingly OK this year!
Sunday, that is.
Saturday was a little rough. I knew Mother’s Day was coming, and I was dreading it. All day my stomach was upset and I felt on the verge of tears. After a few hours of lying on my couch, I finally forced myself to go to my friend Maria’s housewarming party. Instinct told me that being around my friends would be an instant cure. It was. As soon as I arrived, a good giggle and a glass of sangria did the trick. The sad spell was broken.
Sunday started much better. I woke up happy and energized. The sun was shining, the birds were chirping, and I was ready for the day. This was a surprise – especially since sometimes on Mother’s Day, I literally don’t want to get out of bed.
Mark and I were in the bagel line by 10:30AM (just in time to beat out the Brooklyn hipsters who sleep in!). As we walked to the subway, I told him that the weather being sunny always makes me happier on days like this. “The day my mom died and the next day at her funeral were both really sunny, beautiful days,” I told him. “It makes me feel like the heavens are at peace.”
We spent the next few hours on the apartment hunt. We’re moving in together (yay!), and this was day 2 of the search. Between apartments, we visited our friend Melissa who’s a first-time mommy celebrating Mother’s Day. It felt so nice to celebrate a young mother. It reminded that the holiday is happy, too.
At 3PM, my brother picked us up and we drove to Long Island to spend the afternoon at my dad’s girlfriend Susan’s house. This time, I didn’t care about wearing a dress or impressing everyone. I wore jeans and acted like myself – and I had a great time. Susan and I had some really nice chats, I enjoyed talking to her two children who are in their 30s, and I even got a hug from her 1-year-old cutie-pie grandson, Cooper – I’m smitten!
When I finally crashed into bed, I was totally wiped but content. It had been a good day, mostly because I finally understood that my life had to go this way. My mom had to pass. This is part of my story. And it shapes the path my life takes – and I like my life! I used to long for a life with my mom in it again. But now, I long for the life I have, with all the people I might not have met and grown to love like Susan and Mark. I’m thankful, and I’m at peace.
What surprises you about your own story or life path? What turns has it taken that you didn’t expect, but now you accept?